Now some people try to give me advice on love and dating, sex and playing, trying to teach me the ways of the world, well i say, FUCK THE WORLD! nobody really knows anything. We might learn facts, and we might know truths, but in the end we never know people and trying to teach anyone how a man or a woman thinks is such a big waste of time.
Anywhoo, ive been feeling quite high lately, and its funny because ive been sober, but im getting these tingling vibes, feeling these good vibes, feeling happy, feeling fun. I hope i wont get hurt again and i hope something happens for real this time, so many good things are coming i just hope i or anyone else doesnt ruin this for me.
I like to go out and meet different people, i like to stay out and enjoy the night. Im young and i do what i want, im dumb and i do what i want. But its ok because theres always time and even if i die today, at least there will be things ive said. At least there will be things ive done, and words ive sung.
Everytime i see her its a constant struggle to maintain composure, ive known her for so long how can i just go outright and kiss her. Ive said so much shit for so long how can i tell her the truth. Girls think theyre the only ones who get hurt, well i was raised on love and i get hurt too. In the past ive been honest, ive shown who i am and what i wanted, but so many people expect you to lie your way into their hearts that its difficult for an honest man to find a decent girl who isnt expecting some made up shit. No i didnt go right out and tell them what i felt and no i didnt go and create elaborate romantic nights. I just let things cook and when i felt it was ready i went for it, i told them how beautiful and amazing women they are. Nobody seems to appreciate it coming from a 5 foot 5, 20 pounds overweight male with a moptop and big sweaters.
So i changed the game, i spoke more freely, got more in depth, lost the mop and sweaters, stopped eating so much, and stopped worrying about what they thought or what they want. In the end, most women dont know what they want from a relationship anyways,
Im not some depressed, emo blogger. I just write how i feel and i feel what i write. Im young and love everyone, but does anyone love me? Can you reach out your hand and just grab me and kiss me? Is it hard for you to see me as i sit here and speak?
well it doesnt matter now this is just for me, i dont care if you think im a freak. Im just trying to get some peace of mind and get rid of then, so afterwards i dont think about it so much.
I dont know how ill feel tommorow, but i know how i feel today, and i just want to see her and kiss her everyday. I just want to hold her and let her know everythings ok.
So heres to hoping!
someone called me out of the blue a few hours ago, threatning me for money i supposedly owed him, what makes it worse is he came to my house, waited and threatned me more. He knew who i was and knew where i lived but this money i supposedly owed him was from a rare transfer i made with a friend a long time ago.
Scared and angry, i just did what i had to do. One day ill find out who this guy is and ill call some old friends from duran and kill this bitch. One way or another. Im serious
im the most useless person in the world on mondays, i just cant seem to work, especially when im out of it, i need something to relax with something to keep me up and going or else im just going to sleep and miss everything today.